Finding My Place in the TheoDrama
January 24, 2022
I have been feeling a little discouraged lately….
Granted, I have only been on this journey with my new business for about three weeks….
I have had some really great meetings!
I feel like I have had people express interest in my services, but I have yet to actually get a signed contract.
But, I have to admit, I have not been spending as much time with God as I thought I would on this journey. I had visions of grandeur that each day would be like when I spent a weekend at the Cloisters on the Platte. While there, I felt so close to God! I felt like I was really listening and hearing Him speak to me. But, every day, I find myself quickly getting to work and not spending the time with God or in Scripture like I thought I would. That is a take away for me, but God did get through to me today…
I started my morning listening to the Bible in a Year podcast. We are in the middle of the story of Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat. In Genesis 45:7, when Joseph is revealing to his brothers who he really is he says, “God, therefore, sent me on ahead of you to ensure for you a remnant on earth and to save your lives in an extraordinary deliverance.” I love this story, but this made me stop and listen more intently. The first mention of “remnant” in the Bible! This was like a shot of purpose to me. Yes, remember what you started! Remember that God has been protecting a remnant since the beginning of time. Remember that you heard God speak to you to start this business to grow that faithful remnant!
Later in the day, I was driving and listening/praying the Joyful Mysteries with Bishop Robert Barron on Spotify. The 2nd Joyful Mystery is The Visitation. In Bishop Barron’s meditation before starting the decade of the Rosary he speaks of the “theo-drama” we are all called to participate in. Mary willingly accepted her role in the theo-drama. She probably never had a personal ego-drama to depart from, like we do. The ego-drama is the play that we direct, we produce, and we star in. The theo-drama is the great story being told by God, the play being directed by God. We need to discover our role in that drama. This also made me stop and realize that I need to focus on what God is calling me to. I can’t get discouraged…. God called me to this! I am eager to support God’s will through the mission and vision of this new little company I have started.
I love how God makes connections for me that I wasn’t even expecting. I love when I listen and truly try to “get” what God is telling me. I will keep working and keep calling and keep creating. With God as my guide, how can I go wrong!